Like...

What time machine?

;)

Carry on.

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Don't let 'em say...

...you ain't beautiful...

Alright, so it looks like Eminem's new album might have merit to it after all...

What I listened to before, with the exception of 'We Made You', didn't impress me...but I like this.

In other news...

So where have I been?

Errr...ummmm...Facebook?

(facepalm)

Meh.

I'm learning a lot of random stuff if nothing else. Will it help me conquer/'save' the world?

Mmmmm...errrrr...well, it's kind of one of those 'save the world in your own mind' kind of belief systems I think...which obviously isn't all bad...but, just like church, it does make one wonder where the preaching meets reality. lol

So far, so good though. No, seriously, the entire storyline is incredibly dumb in one regard...but if it happens to work out...then it's fairytale-kind-of-dumb and that's mad cool.

Sue me.

So lets see...the global political scene I'm supposed to still be giving a f*ck about? (sigh) The number that scrolled across the bottom of my screen the other day was 27.x Trillion.

Wow. In truly comical form the way everything else fits into the story perfectly...what a pathetic way to introduce the news of capitalist Armageddon.

You know kids...with all due respect...WTF?

WTF? Who the f*ck taught you how to design a pyramid? You're pyramid looks a bit more pointy than the symbolism would otherwise indicate. I'm just saying...

Heard any good jokes lately?

Why did Allen go to get his passport renewed?

Because it doesn't expire until the end of April 2012...but for some reason I thought it expired this year and had unknowingly altered would-be travel plans b/c of it...

Whoopsy!

WTF Allen?

I know!!!!

I told ya'll my head has been in the clouds lately.

Well...you can thank Stella for that.

Sorry...I'm easily distracted.

But yeah, everything else is great...

Hope all is well with you as well...

Wow...my writing has really suffered huh? Well...as long as it really isn't all pivotal in...

...I assume everyone knows where I stand and why by now anyway...

Carry on.

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The Esoteric Catalyst.

So I spent today (Saturday) helping my friend Bron screen his movie to theoretically understand how much work has to be done behind stuff to make it a success...

Which got me thinking...

Anyway, it was cool. Got to see a side of downtown L.A. and and element of the 'urban subculture' that I had never paid close attention to before.

Apparently he's big time in an underground street artist-kind of way within certain circles.

Here's another name for one of my clothing brands --> Secretly famous.

The slogan could be "How high does this thing go?"...and then every time it goes so much higher...whatever it is.

It's just a 'brand concept'...add it to the list...

So, how many lives have you saved lately?

Oh, you didn't realize we were keeping score? Oh, my bad, I thought life was just one huge, funny, quirky test like that?

You know, I watched some interesting documentaries and...(facepalm)...

Damnit, it just occurred to me I've been updating Facebook instead of writing in a more valuable style about my misadventures in life. You know what my problem is?

I'm bored but need 'mentor-type' instruction to hone my ideas into something of a non-stop rain of dumb but occasionally profound ideas and observations on the internets. lolz OMG!

Genius!

I just figured it out...I'm going to start a lol catz religion just to be a smartass. If I remember tomorrow, which I won't, but if I were a TV writer I could probably throw that idea on the table in sarcastic fashion...and then start deconstructing everything from there.

The 'lol cat' God says.....and then insert whatever point it is you're trying to argue.

I keep telling you, I'm right, and when I'm around smart people...they usually agree with me...

I'm just saying--I think a lot...so I understand many sides of things. It can be a blessing and a curse. Well...let's see...where were we...

Calling it a night, because this was just a token entry to try and remind myself what I'm supposed to be doing again...

Here, watch these:

(I don't agree 100% because Mr. Dawkins overestimates people from his own 'genius-type' perspective...that's a key oversight my life is a testament to.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 3.+ (for perfect timing see Facebook)

IDEA cat...

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Bonus! --> Part 4

It went well.

I got a tour and a t-shirt!

The rest of life is bright as well.

Carry on.

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Uh oh.

Bad Allen!

Not well trained!!!

lololol

Yeah, I've been writing 'lol' in my missives a lot more lately...but I think it's actually become some form of 'slang punctuation' not necessarily 'Laughing Out Loud'. That's what CAPS are for. (smirk)

So, where was I...oh yes, re-directing my vision away from the Facebook content stream and helpless desire to interact with my kindergarten-level knowledge and esoteric storyline of experience and epic vision...chasing my tail, chasing my tail, chasing my tail...

But it's just a 'holding pattern'. ;)

In other news, life seems to be fine relatively speaking. It's nice to be at peace with it. I actually posted a picture of my current environment on Facebook today, so hell has officially frozen over.

In case you didn't get the memo...

It's been an interesting 30 days. Up to and including planning on taking my motorcycle to the interview tomorrow instead of my car. Fun times in the city...

Pray for me.

vOm.

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My Bad.

Sorry world...my head has been 'in the clouds' lately in case it wasn't fairly obvious by the night/day difference in my behavior patterns. ;)

Anywho, so where was I/were we?

Oh yes, the world is going to hell in a hand basket with all our eggs in it...

Well, no, actually I have my interview with Current lined up for Friday at noon.

Wish me luck! (and spread some magic my way!)

Other than that...ummm...errr...grrr...

It's hard to explain, because we do not yet have enough factual information to explain things in detail. The 'reflection' thing? Ummm...well, that of course depends on her...the jury is still out. I could tell you the story, but then I'd have to pull you into that whole 2012 and holonomic brain theory debate which strangely enough is now either directly or indirectly associated with the U.N. until I get some more detailed responses as to exactly where the lines are being drawn.

The only problem with games/perspectives like that is it allows one to easily confuse things as well as providing an engaging degree of entertainment and escapism... Sounds familiar huh? You have been paying attention to your TV haven't you? lolol Then again, if you think the God of the bible is responsible for the physical Sun literally 'rising and falling' everyday...we need to have a talk anyway.

And you only thought it was a crazy world...

But as long as everyone is happy and not hurting anyone else to be so, everything is OK.

Don't ask. It's a short but relatively long story that could be amazingly life changing for the better, embarrassingly disappointing for the worse, or end up completely neutral but possibly helpful anyway.

Dude, that's what happens when you let the world get so fooked up that entire countries are 'military states' and the only other options are a sanity-twisting hodgepodge of witnessing pain and suffering from various degrees of insulated luxury or getting past my intense idealized-future-and-self-preservation-aligned scrutiny.

(Yes, I am totally grabbing random things, the true story obviously lies between the lines.)

If you had the international platform and resources some people do... It's somewhat surprising they invest so much time but don't invest time more directly and intelligently towards the ultimate goal. Taking tours of the problem isn't the solution, taking first-hand tours to understand and design a new, better, and complete solution is.

I hate to say it, but I think the problem really isn't that complicated when you cut the bullshit.

So, let's see...now if I remember correctly....what's going on in the world of consequence despite the death of "celebrities"? God, what the fuck is wrong with you monkeys? Does it occur to you, if our society wasn't allowed to come to this fucked up point, it wouldn't be at this fucked up point?...and yet the argument I hear from everyone is that 'compared to the rest of the world'...

WTF? No, seriously, WTF?

Indulgence is one thing. Blind indulgence is something else.

So they are more wrong and therefore that makes us relatively right? Hey, I understand the logic completely, but what the fuck every happened to people like me who say 'fuck everyone else, I'm holding myself to a higher standard'? They get disappointed a lot by other people's reality, but you have to be above it to think like that in the first place. It's all about perspective. Rise above.

Trust me, it beats the circle of rationalization I was enduring from Coaster this weekend. Smart people with a case to make are interesting creatures to watch though. Everyone loves to have their cake and eat it too...but I don't have that luxury...because I treat others as I would like to be treated. Hmmm...don't suppose you've heard of that concept lately?

Don't get me wrong, there are lots of good people in the world...and everyone has good and less-good in various percentages...but all that matters to me is that people are honest and forthcoming with me if I ask them to be. I promise them amnesty in exchange for the truth, and then I write it off and stand by my word. Then you're right back to where you started but at least dealing with complete reality.

I trust me. I can prove myself. If you're a complete stranger with a red flag or two around I don't trust you. Can you prove your character is trustworthy? Isn't that par for the course when it comes to love and war? Baby.

Don't trust words. Trust actions. Allow an explanation of intent if need be.

That said, well, at least it looks like I'm writing while tip-toeing my way towards writing or performing professionally again.

Yawn. Oh yes, I haven't turned on the TV yet today and haven't watched it too much for the last few...so this could be interesting especially because of all the shit I've been talking about international politics lately.

I sincerely wish we could bump the median IQ up 30 points and create a specific 'cookie cutter' model to balance the population to the world's geography in an idealized way...but we haven't hit critical mass yet. I mean, sure, you can just continuing letting the shit breed faster than you can feed it...or you can start creating a system of more intelligent rewards and restrictions.

Are any of these my problems? No, I just volunteered my mind. I can walk away from this whole 'designs on saving the world' thing and live happily in my 'normal life' forever as well...but it does make for unique fun on a level you would have to experience to understand.

And on that note I'm going to catch up with my 'other world' on TV and try to start reprogramming my behavior back to this format instead of Facebook. It just occurred to me there are currently three distinct 'realities' at play. My normal life in 3D, Facebook which is an interesting combination of friendly strangers and real-life friends, and 'TV land' where the writers and producers mix a blur of entertainment and reality...'feedback loop' optional. Interesting.

God some things are SO addictive.

Yay technology!!!!!!

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P.S. Hey, check it out... Remember how I've been whining and complaining about the way people misuse the word 'love'("luv") so much in our society for as long as you've known me? Well, interestingly enough, I looked it up the other day and realized the English language might actually be the weak link as much as some peoples' super, sappy, sweet everyday dialog. It's an interesting read --> ♡

P.P.S. Don't worry, this one was supposed to be completely random for my own purposes of reanalyzing at a later date. I like to keep track of myself like that. Don't worry, if it makes it into book/movie form much less world history, I'll go back and fill in the blanks. ;)

P.P.P.S. But, this I can buy.

The Proverbial Boom.

Happy 4th of July America!

Completely? unrelated but cool song/video. vOm.

How's that working out for ya?

Not allegorical enough?

What Yellow where?

lolz

I'll be back.

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Not-so-bad advice.

Courtesy of Facebook 'friends'...

When you love yourself you are being selfless*

Energy is such an interesting concept. When people are happy there is an electric exciting energy in the air. When children are carefree and curious there is an innocent and delicate energy in the air. As we move into the summer, remember to take time to feel the energy around you and to come alive with it. Maybe it is you that is causing this rich fun energy. Go with that energy no matter what other energies cross your path. This healing energy illuminates the world and aborts all forms of darkness, sadness and suffering.

The animals know this energy as they are naturally aware of it. Children are aware of it, the universe is this energy. As we expand as a species we begin to realize that this is our path as a whole. Our path as human beings is to love as a whole no matter what. To not choose fear, not be tainted by hate and to move into higher levels of consciousness. For some this is a tall order but for others this is the only reality- the reality we are in now*

Maybe you are witnessing this lit up energy around you. Whatever way you are feeling this magical energy know that it is no mistake that you are feeling it. You are feeling this divine energy for a reason. You were born to experience joy, manifest abundance and have ecstatic pleasures. It is all the same, positive energy, no matter if it's coming from you or other beings is it's own energy force and part of the whole.

Connect with your God/Goddess energies for a moment. Tap into them, take your time~ What are they telling you in this particular moment. Are these energies happy or sad. Do they need more attention and love or are they feeling content with the attention you have given them? Continue to give the God/Goddess energies your attention, love and care. When you feel them crying out to be heard, listen to there cries. Just like your soul, your God and or Goddess needs to be heard and understood.

Are you taking enough time to connect with your body? Are you taking enough time to connect with your spirit? By creating an awareness of some of the needs you might have both physically and spiritually you begin to create levels of healing that on some level you new were possible, however now you see they are. Also, mentally- are you ok? Are you able to express yourself to someone who cares? Are you happy or sad.... do you take vitamins, have a doctor...

Being aware that your healing process can be accelerated by checking in with the body, checking in with the spirit you realize that there is so much more to life than errands and bills. Yes, these things do need to get done but if the fine tuning within the soul is overlooked as well as the body, you better believe you will be out of balance and most likely develop some kind of ailment.

The universe is in perfect harmony and wants you to be the same way. Thank yourself for checking in with your body and your spirit. Lay down and take in a nice deep breath~ hold it and release through the mouth~ Do this another 3-6 times this evening. Soothing energy~ As you lay down realize that you are not your thoughts. You have the power to shape your life into anything you want it to be. The thoughts you have do attract what comes into your life as The Secret describes so beautifully.

Give yourself the gift of a 10-20 minute meditation as you unwind from your day. You are here to love yourself and love other beings. As you get up to sit in your meditation (set your timer) hold a stone or two you desire for your meditation. Slowly realizing: I am not my thoughts of the day, I am not my thoughts ever. The thoughts I have do attract what I want and don't want. I have the power to change my life by my positive, loving and healing thoughts. I am not my thoughts of the evening. I am a being of light and as I move deeper and deeper into my expanding awareness I connect with my higher self, my higher power. Love, oneness, eternity, divinity, grace, healing and
protection, unity, peace of mind, serenity, bliss and ecstasy*

Namaste,
Sarah

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Don't you just love the asterisk*?

* = lol

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